Since the election I have been struggling with more than a sense of disappointment. The turmoil is formed from outrage that a man so undeserving, bested the better WOMAN candidate. Outrage that even beyond the lies and relentless assault on her character, was the judgment of the men's club. Critical of Madam Secretary's shrill voice, her laugh, her ambition, her aggression, her courage, her knowledge, her accomplishments, her power, her looks, all a source of derision and resentment by many men and some women. None of these characteristics are failings in men - only in women.It was sheer joy to see thousands of fathers with their daughters and generations of families. It is our duty to hand off to them the future they deserve.
Anger that for years we have been bombarded with the moral failings of Hillary. Unfounded, but nonetheless a relentless assault using our own government's resources to keep her down. The outrage of seeing men get away with torturing her with endless investigations and hearings only to have them proved false, and watch as they come at her from a different angle. These paragons of morality then turned around and supported a man with so many failings one feels inadequate trying to list them all. The hypocrisy is so glaring I think anyone would be ashamed to even participate in it. Yet they did.
Overlying all of this turmoil is another one. One even bigger than the hypocrisy, unfairness, illegal use of our government sources to defeat an opposing candidate. The election was rigged. Not just rigged by Koch and their political machine and voter suppression, but by an outside enemy government. The man who won the presidency was conspiring with the oil and gas industry and Russia to win.
In my heart, I believe that the voting count is wrong and was manipulated to make Trump the winner. If we held a recount, I do not believe he would come close to winning. The propaganda portion is easy to sort out. WikiLeaks has only used its information to hurt our government and to stop the candidate they knew would keep their ambitions and greed in check. The candidate with the moral fortitude to deny greed to dictate our public policy. Russia's participation is obvious. What was not obvious was Donald Trump's and the FBI's & GOP's participation in the treason.
I'm mad as hell. I'm not going to get over it. I'm not going to accept the outcome. I'm not ever going to accept Trump. I'm not going to go along with the GOP's willingness to bend over for every special interest group who wants to shred our nation's safety nets, pillage our tax dollars and undermine our schools.
Traveling cross country was worth it because it helps knowing that I am not alone. I am not the only one who sees the struggles before us.
Yesterday, after the march, I visited Arlington Cemetery to remind myself that it is our duty to fight back. To not do so dishonors those who died for our way of life. No traitorous, insecure, immoral, contemptible, misogynistic, draft dodging fat toad with dyed hair and little fat hands is going to take it from us or give it away to the highest bidder.
It was enormously uplifting knowing how many people around the world feel the same way, and knowing we will put our resources behind making sure that the people of not just America, but of the world have a voice, and have power.
One of my biggest challenges is dealing with the hatred I feel towards those who have allowed this to happen, disgust with Trump's supporters who are weak and gullible and swallow the swill poured over them by the enemy day after day.
I'm determined to turn these strong emotions into actions to protect our children, our Democracy and against my nation's enemies and their pathetic blind minions. I'm a progressive American woman, it's what we do.